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,  6″ x 9″
343 pages
ISBN 978-1-63381-388-5

by Kathy Eliscu & Ted White

Setting: April 2011, out-of-state hospital.

“Are we worried?” I ask the doctor, in front of Ted, fully expecting him to say,

“Oh, no. Nothing a round of antibiotics can’t treat.”

Instead, we are in a race against death, as we begin an unasked-for journey of denial, hope, anger, love—and everything in between.

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 A compelling, candid story of a cancer patient and his wife/caretaker as they do battle with the husband’s brain tumor in this back-and-forth diary. Distinctive, compassionate, and heartrending, it is a must-read.

—Cheryl Grant Gillespie, coauthor of Foreword Indies and INDIE Book Awards Finalist Compassionate Journey, author of Gracie & Albert and From Beaver Creek to Hanoi

 Death from brain cancer holds mystery and terror. This memoir is uniquely told from the viewpoints of a husband and wife who shared a mighty love. Heartfelt and eye-opening.

—Suzette Martinez Standring, award-winning author of The Art of Column Writing and The Art of Opinion Writing, featured columnist for The Patriot Ledger, nationally syndicated for 15 years, former president and Director Emeritus of the National Society of Newspaper Columnists

For anyone embarking on a terminal diagnosis journey, particularly caregivers—this book is a must-read. It is gentle, honest, and earnest. Kathy, along with her husband, Ted, include the reader on their cancer journey, which includes diagnosis, disease progression, Ted’s death, and Kathy’s journey into the great beyond of figuring out life without your spouse. For anyone navigating the unknown of this experience, the value of a real-life story is invaluable. I would consider this essential reading for any couple navigating terminal illness.

—Cole Imperi, author, speaker, triple-certified thanatologist, founder of the School of American Thanatology, and has been described as one of America’s leading experts on death, dying, and grief

This is a marvelous love story. Kathy Eliscu and Ted White have combined to tell a story of great courage, human dignity, and extraordinary compassion.

—Dave Lieber, columnist, The Dallas Morning News

This memoir captures the humor and the heartbreak of a love story cut all too short. You will laugh and cry with Ted and Kathy to the very end.

—The Rev. Dr. Judith Blanchard, ordained in the United Church of Christ, retired chaplain at Maine Medical Center, collaborator with Mair Honan on hospital chaplain murder mystery Free Solo (2021)


 Kathy Eliscu is an award-winning humor columnist and a retired RN. She authored Not Even Dark Chocolate Can Fix This Mess and pursues recreational and spiritual activities in southern Maine.

Ted White, MD, was a psychiatrist and psychoanalyst, devoted to those with mental illness and substance disorders. He was multital­ented: an athlete, nature lover, photographer, musician, and friend.

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